Somebody?
Anybody?
Sighs. I'm confused. I don't know. I cannot decide if I want to continue what I am doing right now. I cannot even decide if I like my work. I thought I had till December to come up with a decision but I'm surmising, I don't. They are converting my internship contract into a three-year contract for my articles, earlier than expected. Err... I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I cannot decide. Three-years.... it's too long. It's a big four firm but.... (to hell with the big four ranking). It's not about the firm's ranking. It's about what I want. And, I don't know what I want. Is this what I want? Being an auditor (or the likes)? How can I be so boring? So uncreative? 'Creativity' is an offense in this field. One has to live by the defined principles. You cannot digress. You cannot think on your own. Okay, I'm in Risk Advisory (it's a lot better than audit) but... uh. I never even wanted to work a job, in the first place. It's not even a part of my long-term goals. (Do I even have long-term goals?). I just want to complete my studies and then, unwind. Working..... I don't know. But... if this is not what I want then why the bloody hell am I so confused? Why don't I just decline? Why can I not decide? Oh Lord! Help me...... I feel like breaking down.
7 comments:
I once heard this in a movie, "you know what women's problem is? the problem is that they don't know their problem." i find it so true, lol.
Everything turns out for the better...
@ Sid: *smiles sheepishly* I can't say about others but this seems pretty much true for me, right now. :$
@ Anonymous: Yes, but... Uhh I'm confused.
hey ann :)..i think u shud go for it..a great opportunity..u ll start liking it..i can understand all what u hve written..but may be after taking actions we can know how things are, not before that.
Read 2 nafal istikhara prayer nd read istikhara dua at the end and pray for betterness before deciding. Then take the decision. Then the decision would be better one. Gudluck.
@ majworld: heyyy majworld :) Hmmmm.... I shall try. At least, I won't regret not having given it a try.
ya, u shud..one of top 4..wow..u shud feel lucky :)..feel it...:)
Err... lucky? Uhh... acha *tries to feel it* lol
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