Thursday, October 31, 2013

The battles within.

I'm not, almost never, in a position to raise a finger at anyone, whatsoever.

My actions might very well as well be far more objectionable.

Sighs.

... I'm not proud of whatever I've become.

Tuesday, October 22, 2013

I can't pretend I'm okay, when not a single particle of my existence feels okay. I just I can't.

I am tired - of putting up a show all the time.

I am sick, and I am tired.

Sighs.

Please Allah saaiin...

Monday, October 21, 2013

It's so cold in here.

Monday, October 14, 2013

Of Techno City, depression and Kat baby's legs...

Sighs.
I don't want to be depressed.
It's so not me.
Since when did I start letting things bother me yaar...
I've become so brittle.
Sighs. Choro.
French braid banao, chalo.
Aaaye haaye!
Teil tou lagga liya karo.
*empties a tin of Sasso over head*
Thodi Thodi depression tou aati jaati hai na... Some tend to stay longer than others.
Some even stick with us for our whole life.
We can't do anything about that...
And jis tarah ke hum hain built... You know... The type who are usually always backward looking and who hold on to the past. Tend to feel more depression...
But then automatically, we also find the good fuzzy memories in the past too, which bring us a smile...
The idea is to deal with our depression our own way... Even if it means watching Kat's legs!
(...)
I just... I don't know. I can't seem to locate (and access the cache holding) good fuzzy moments in the past.
I wish I at least had that ability.
You do have that abillity. I guess bad natually always has a greater influence than good. So we can't help that. But just cause you can't locate or remember them, doesn't mean they aren't there.
Acha sunu.
Chalo.
Kahan Chalain?
Techno City... Quad core lainay!
No Techno City, too much garmi man. What is wrong with you!?
We go techno when it - rains.

Talk is cheap.

Saturday, October 12, 2013

I'm emotionally  drained.

Friday, October 11, 2013

Kuj onj vi raahvaa'n okhiyaa'n san

...
Kuj gal vich ghamaa'n da touq vi si...

Kuj saajan kasar na chori si
Kuj zehr raqeebaa'n ghol dita...

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

Working from home

... Is not cool. ADD is to be blamed.

In another news, here's something I found while sifting through one of my note pads...

(Courtesy: Sloth)

Monday, October 7, 2013

Let's be honest

You don't need a friend, a lover, a healer.

You need an attendant.

Sighs.

... Where do we find you an attendant?

Sunday, October 6, 2013

Tu mere safar ka shareek hai - Nahin humsafar!

... Yeh jo raig-e-dasht-e-firaq hai
Mere raastoun mein bichhi huwi
Kisi morr per rukay kahin
Yeh jo raat hai mere chaar suu
Magar iski koi sehar nahin
Na chha'oun hai na samar koi
Meine chaan dekha shajar shajar
Mere charagar...

Tuesday, October 1, 2013