jaa aur koi zabt ki duniya talaash ker
aye ishq hum tou ab tere qaabil nahin rahe
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Of unsound mind..
So, is it true what they say about you?
That you are- you are insane? A little deranged, perhaps?
That you are- you are insane? A little deranged, perhaps?
Monday, June 20, 2011
Aaj bhi ka'abay ke chakkar mein hai masroof jahaan... Aaj tak Moula Ali(as) tera na sad'qa utraa
Hisaar-e-noor meri wus'at-e-bayaa'n mein nahin
Kahan se laa'on woh quwwat meri zubaa'n mein nahin
Ali ke baab mein humse na behes kar waa'iz
Mere yaqeen ki manzil tere gumaa'n mein nahin
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
one bala down, one more to go..
Bala, as in monster in urdu and sindhi (and any other language).
I had Audit & Assurance exam today.... I don't know how it went. Cannot comment. Err.. cannot comment not because I'm reserving my comments but because... well, you have to know something to comment on it. Lol. Pata nahi kaise hua, seriously.
Khairu, opened the gate and went like, "Sahi thee wayu na baji" (It went alright, no?). And my grin grew wider, for God knows what reason. But he sounded cute. I had asked him to pray for me. Hence, he was asking about the exam. Khairu has the most cutest smile I've seen lately. *smiles* And, probably its because of this smile that I cannot scold him or be angry at him. I try speaking strictly with him when he doesn't do things right, but it doesn't really work. He's a good boy.
Khairrrr, met Gruphy and Gopher at the exam centre, which was lovely. Meeting lovely people unexpectedly is lovely indeed. And guess what, both of them happened to be waiting for me. *grins* I feel important. Gopher looked so immensely human, gopher is called a gopher for a reason you should understand. I introduced gopher and gruphy to each other, which was another lovely thing. So, all this loveliness sort of made me forget about the exam and its dreadfulness.
Gruphy left afterwards, so I was left with Gopher who had to wait reeeeally long because my driver decided to disappear somewhere. But, it was good catching up after soo many days. It was lovely, again. Lol.
I got home smiling, which made mum feel good. However, I did break it to her that I'm not smiling because I'm acing the exam. *grins* I told her how lovely the evening after exam had been. Then, I had a little chat with her about gopher and gruphy, and so she discovered that I was actually smiling at gopher's silliness. Even mum knows how silly gophers can be. *winks* Anyways, so ammi jani asked me to ask gopher to meet me on friday too at the exam centre (despite the fact that gopher doesn't have an exam on friday, lol) so that I can return home with a grin and not a grimace on my face.
Anyways, too much about gophers and gruphys.
Or, not.
Has it ever crossed your mind why all the people around me have nick names that sound like names that people would rather have for their pets, lol? No. Gruphy hates her nickname. Says it sounds like a dogs name. Not wrong, is that? Haha. And gopher has another animal-istic nick as well which is, 'sloth'. Sloth can be used as a swear too, you see. Here, try this. Say it grinding your teeth with wrath, 'YOUU, SLOTHH!!'. Haina? Haha. And then, there's a 'maindak'. I don't like maindak, hence maindak! I've gave Z a new nick as well. It's 'kambal', lol. No, don't ask. *chuckles* But yeah, kambal is very animal-istic. *smiles* I was tentatively called a 'white monkey' too. Again, don't ask.
I watched the musical from the 60's 'My Fair Lady'. Ufff. I've fallen in love with it. It was exceeding lovely. I think it'll be my favorite movie from now on. I didn't really have a 'favourite' movie up till now, can you believe it? Yes, it's kind of difficult for me to categorise things as 'my favourites'. I jump at disliking things, where as liking stuff has always been a problem for me. *sighs*
Here, have a giggle (at my miseries):
S (referring to ZB): She needs medical attention... She DOES
Me: Ha-ha. Even you needed medical attention, did we provide you with any such thing, no na? Tou isay kion dilwa'aingay?
BJ: Aur tum per tou medical bhi fail hogai, kion?
Me: *whaaaaaat*
S & ZB: Hahahahahahaha... *nearly rolling on the bed in fits of laughter*
Me: *jumps at BJ and starts beating him- day dreams*
I had Audit & Assurance exam today.... I don't know how it went. Cannot comment. Err.. cannot comment not because I'm reserving my comments but because... well, you have to know something to comment on it. Lol. Pata nahi kaise hua, seriously.
Khairu, opened the gate and went like, "Sahi thee wayu na baji" (It went alright, no?). And my grin grew wider, for God knows what reason. But he sounded cute. I had asked him to pray for me. Hence, he was asking about the exam. Khairu has the most cutest smile I've seen lately. *smiles* And, probably its because of this smile that I cannot scold him or be angry at him. I try speaking strictly with him when he doesn't do things right, but it doesn't really work. He's a good boy.
Khairrrr, met Gruphy and Gopher at the exam centre, which was lovely. Meeting lovely people unexpectedly is lovely indeed. And guess what, both of them happened to be waiting for me. *grins* I feel important. Gopher looked so immensely human, gopher is called a gopher for a reason you should understand. I introduced gopher and gruphy to each other, which was another lovely thing. So, all this loveliness sort of made me forget about the exam and its dreadfulness.
Gruphy left afterwards, so I was left with Gopher who had to wait reeeeally long because my driver decided to disappear somewhere. But, it was good catching up after soo many days. It was lovely, again. Lol.
I got home smiling, which made mum feel good. However, I did break it to her that I'm not smiling because I'm acing the exam. *grins* I told her how lovely the evening after exam had been. Then, I had a little chat with her about gopher and gruphy, and so she discovered that I was actually smiling at gopher's silliness. Even mum knows how silly gophers can be. *winks* Anyways, so ammi jani asked me to ask gopher to meet me on friday too at the exam centre (despite the fact that gopher doesn't have an exam on friday, lol) so that I can return home with a grin and not a grimace on my face.
Anyways, too much about gophers and gruphys.
Or, not.
Has it ever crossed your mind why all the people around me have nick names that sound like names that people would rather have for their pets, lol? No. Gruphy hates her nickname. Says it sounds like a dogs name. Not wrong, is that? Haha. And gopher has another animal-istic nick as well which is, 'sloth'. Sloth can be used as a swear too, you see. Here, try this. Say it grinding your teeth with wrath, 'YOUU, SLOTHH!!'. Haina? Haha. And then, there's a 'maindak'. I don't like maindak, hence maindak! I've gave Z a new nick as well. It's 'kambal', lol. No, don't ask. *chuckles* But yeah, kambal is very animal-istic. *smiles* I was tentatively called a 'white monkey' too. Again, don't ask.
I watched the musical from the 60's 'My Fair Lady'. Ufff. I've fallen in love with it. It was exceeding lovely. I think it'll be my favorite movie from now on. I didn't really have a 'favourite' movie up till now, can you believe it? Yes, it's kind of difficult for me to categorise things as 'my favourites'. I jump at disliking things, where as liking stuff has always been a problem for me. *sighs*
Here, have a giggle (at my miseries):
S (referring to ZB): She needs medical attention... She DOES
Me: Ha-ha. Even you needed medical attention, did we provide you with any such thing, no na? Tou isay kion dilwa'aingay?
BJ: Aur tum per tou medical bhi fail hogai, kion?
Me: *whaaaaaat*
S & ZB: Hahahahahahaha... *nearly rolling on the bed in fits of laughter*
Me: *jumps at BJ and starts beating him- day dreams*
Friday, June 3, 2011
The darkness, that swallowed me.
Why did I ever leave you? Why? And why did you let me go, back into those murky dark waters? Or may be you didn't. No. You didn't. You didn't let me go. I was the one who left you. I slipped out my hand from your hands. My love you for wasn't strong enough. My demons were stronger. I reverted back to the darkness that still thrived in some shady corners of my heart. The darkness took over me and swallowed my love for you with it.
My eyes were weak. The darkness that had grown on to me did not allow me to see the truth; the glory; you. I was foolish. I was ignorant. I was oblivious. I was walking farther and farther away from you, without even realising it. My mind did not recognise the darkness; my demons disguised it with light. My senses refused to even notice how dreary and grey this light was. And, so I kept walking.
My heart was silent. Silent as a grave. I realised not, that it was dying. Neither did I realise this silence to be the one that there is before a storm. So, I kept walking- into obscurity.
So, I kept walking- for days, and nights. I kept walking, until I it grew harder and harder for me to breath. Alas! The oblivion. I started gasping for air soon. Suffocated. I looked around, as if absurdly trying to see the air around me. I stopped. I had to. Every single muscle I moved seemed to rob me off the last bit of oxygen left in my blood. I inhaled as deep a breath as I could have, as if intending to inhale every single molecule of oxygen that was there around me. But, to no avail. There was none.
Panic started creeping into my skin. There was no air around me. I started gasping harder, louder and louder. My legs surrendered and brought me to ground. I was suffocating, right under an open sky. My heart raced faster, I could hear every single thud it made against my chest. My vision shrank. My head ached. Warm water seeped out of my eyes; eyes that had been dry ever since eons- it seemed. I was helpless, and alone.
The grey light grew dimmer and dimmer. I felt all walls closing in on me; except that there were no walls, anywhere. Fright penetrated the depths of my heart and then... And then, I thought of you. And then and only then, I realised my hand wasn't in yours. I tilted my head to look, tracking my eyes back on the path that I took here. My pupils dilated. Was it the shock, or the darkness? But what difference did it make? One or the same thing, weren't they?
There was no path. Only a haunting void. A vaccum. My heart stopped. My head fell back on ground. There was nothing. Except darkness. Above me. Below me. To my right. To my left. In every single direction, I saw it. Enveloping me, in itself. My body lay there on the ground, still as a corpse. The only thing negating death were my eyes, weeping; my lashes, shivering along with the eyelids. I wanted to scream- I had no voice. I wanted to call your name- I had no voice. All I wanted was to scream your name, but... I had no voice.
My eyes were weak. The darkness that had grown on to me did not allow me to see the truth; the glory; you. I was foolish. I was ignorant. I was oblivious. I was walking farther and farther away from you, without even realising it. My mind did not recognise the darkness; my demons disguised it with light. My senses refused to even notice how dreary and grey this light was. And, so I kept walking.
My heart was silent. Silent as a grave. I realised not, that it was dying. Neither did I realise this silence to be the one that there is before a storm. So, I kept walking- into obscurity.
So, I kept walking- for days, and nights. I kept walking, until I it grew harder and harder for me to breath. Alas! The oblivion. I started gasping for air soon. Suffocated. I looked around, as if absurdly trying to see the air around me. I stopped. I had to. Every single muscle I moved seemed to rob me off the last bit of oxygen left in my blood. I inhaled as deep a breath as I could have, as if intending to inhale every single molecule of oxygen that was there around me. But, to no avail. There was none.
Panic started creeping into my skin. There was no air around me. I started gasping harder, louder and louder. My legs surrendered and brought me to ground. I was suffocating, right under an open sky. My heart raced faster, I could hear every single thud it made against my chest. My vision shrank. My head ached. Warm water seeped out of my eyes; eyes that had been dry ever since eons- it seemed. I was helpless, and alone.
The grey light grew dimmer and dimmer. I felt all walls closing in on me; except that there were no walls, anywhere. Fright penetrated the depths of my heart and then... And then, I thought of you. And then and only then, I realised my hand wasn't in yours. I tilted my head to look, tracking my eyes back on the path that I took here. My pupils dilated. Was it the shock, or the darkness? But what difference did it make? One or the same thing, weren't they?
There was no path. Only a haunting void. A vaccum. My heart stopped. My head fell back on ground. There was nothing. Except darkness. Above me. Below me. To my right. To my left. In every single direction, I saw it. Enveloping me, in itself. My body lay there on the ground, still as a corpse. The only thing negating death were my eyes, weeping; my lashes, shivering along with the eyelids. I wanted to scream- I had no voice. I wanted to call your name- I had no voice. All I wanted was to scream your name, but... I had no voice.